Heart vs Brain - Chapter 11

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                             Chapter 11

                            *Flashback*
          Those teary eyes of Daya which were demanding to know 'why' were haunting Abhijeet since then... His brain playing all the sweet moments they spent together... His heart silent, bruised and guilty... Eyes dried and he felt as if even the tears left him saying that he didn't deserve them after what he did... His ears were ringing with Daya's words 'tum mujhpar galti se bhi goli nahi chala sakte'... He had betrayed Daya his heart shouted... He was broken... Completely broken...
             Abhijeet was walking on a deserted road that led to the chawl... He was blank... No expressions, no reaction... Just then he stumbled upon a small rock and as a reaction held a nearby tree for support... His gaze fell upon his hand and he saw blood marks over it... It was Daya's blood... Must have come when he tried grabbing Abhijeet's hand for support... He kept staring at it for a moment... And then hit his hand on the tree! So hard that he was lucky not to fracture his bones! He wanted to punish himself... Punish himself for making Daya bleed and his punishment was giving pain to himself... Little did he know that these pains wouldn't be able to reduce the ache of his guilt... His hand started bleeding... But he... He was least affected by the happenings

Abhijeet - Khooni hu mai! Am a murderer (he shouted to himself) Pehle apni maa ki jaan li aur ab Daya ko bhi maar dala maine... (Falling on knees) Sirf Daya ka hi nahi puri team ka vishwas toda hai maine... Kya jawab dunga mai freedy ko jab woh puchega ki daya sir kaha hai! Kya jawab dunga mai salunkhe sir ko jab woh mujhse puchege ki daya wapas kyu nahi aaya! Aur ACP sir! Kya kahuga mai unse? Ki maine unke bete ki jaan leli... Nahi... Nahi mai... Mai yeh sab kyu soch raha hu! Daya... Daya gaya hai na hospital... Kuch nahi hoga use... Haa kuch nahi hoga use... Bas ek baar woh theek ho jaye aur, aur yeh case solve ho jaye mai surrender kar dunga... Haa... Mai judge se request karuga ki mujhe woh fasi ki saza de... Mere jaise insan ke liye toh fasi bhi kam hai... Jisne meri jaan itni baar bachayi, usi ki jaan lene ki koshish ki hai maine... Daya ka, ACP sir ka, team ka sabka bhorosa toda hai maine... I don't deserve to live in this world... Mujhe koi... Koi haq nahi hai zinda rehne ka... Waise bhi Daya ki aakho mai apne liye nafrat dekhne se behtar toh mar hi jau mai... Yeh guilt roz roz mera dum ghotegi! Behtar hoga ek baar mai fasi pe latak kar mar jau... Bas ek baar yeh case solve ho jaye mai surrender kar dunga!

              Deciding to surrender once the case is solved, he left for the chawl... Reaching there he saw kaki waiting there for him... As soon as she saw him she got tensed... Abhijeet hadn't expected anyone to be there as it was past midnight and so hadn't cared about his appearance

Kaki - (tensed) Karan beta yeh sab kya hai? Yeh tere haat se khoon kyu beh raha hai?

(Abhijeet was silently staring at her as if he hadn't understood a word of what she said... But kaki was too busy and too tensed to notice his blank face and emotionless eyes)

Kaki - Kitna khoon beh raha hai! Chal andar... Pehle malham patti karwa le

(When Abhijeet did not move from his place she almost dragged him inside, searched for the first aid box and then did Abhijeet's dressing)

Kaki - Ab bata kaise hua yeh sab... Aur tune dressing kyu nahi karwayi?

(Abhijeet was still silent and was staring at the floor)

Kaki - Kuch puch rahi hu tujhse! Kuch toh bol

(And yet again he didn't answer... Kaki understood that something was seriously wrong with him... He hadn't uttered a single word since he came home... She got worried looking at his expressionless face)

Kaki - (Moving her hand in his hair) Kya hua beta? Koi... Koi pareshani hai... Kuch hua hai kya? Tu kuch bol kyu nahi raha haa? Kisi ne kuch kaha kya tujhse? Tujhe yeh chot kaise lagi? Kaha tha itni raat tak? Beta kuch toh bol! Mujhe bohat dar lag raha hai tujhe aise dekh ke... Bata na kya hua! Acha ruk mai pani lekar aati hu...

(Just when she was about to turn she heard sobbing sound and she discovered that Abhijeet was crying)

Kaki - Beta tu ro kyu raha hai? Kuch toh bol Karan! Batayega nahi toh mujhe samjhega kaise ki kya taklef hai tujhe? (Sitting down to be at his level) Maa kaha tha na tune mujhe? Apni maa ko nahi batayega ki kya hua hai?

             (This time Abhijeet couldn't deny her... And just when he was about to say something, his phone started ringing... Excusing her he moved aside to talk)

Abhijeet - Haa Dr. Avinash boliye? Daya theek hai na? (With a hope in his voice)

Avinash - Woh... Woh abhijeet

Abhijeet - Woh kya? Boliye na? Daya theek hai na?

Avinash - Woh yeh ki app please hospital aa jayiye

Abhijeet - Mai... Mai abhi aata hu... Lekin hua kya? App please bataye na?

Avinash - App aayiye mai batata hu

(Saying this he cut the call and Abhijeet could feel his heartbeat getting faster)

Abhijeet - (to kaki) Kaki mujhe kuch kaam hai... Mai nikalta hu... Aur haa mai theek hu... App please tension mat lena aur so jana

Kaki - Lekin beta kaha jaa raha hai?

(But before kaki could receive any answer Abhijeet had already ran away to the hospital)

*Hospital (Dr. Avinash's cabin)*

Abhijeet - Boliye? Kya hua? Daya theek hai na? Koi problem toh nahi hai na?

Avinash - Problem toh hai... Sir please be strong to hear it... Jab tak daya hospital paucha tha uska bohat khoon beh chuka tha... Humne goli toh nikal di hai liken ab woh... Woh coma mai hai... Pata nahi unhe kab tak hosh ayega... Ayega bhi ya nahi, keh nahi sakte...

Abhijeet - C... Co... Coma!

Avinash - Sir please sambhaliye apne appko

Abhijeet - Kya smabhalu mai? Haa? Kya sambhalu? Meri jaan bachayi thi appne! Daya ko kyu nahi bacha paye app coma mai jane se? Aree aise kaise coma mai chala gaya woh? Kar kya rahe the app?

        He was not in a state to think logically... All he knew was that his brother had gone in deep sleep and no one knew when he would wake up... 'Tumhi ne toh goli mari thi use' his soul prompted... And once again the guilt started overpowering him... Tears flowing and hands trembling! These hospital and Daya on hospital bed always always did this to him... But this time it was beyond his control... He didn't have his team team who could console him... Team! How would they have reacted? How much pain they would be in?

Abhijeet - Appne meri team ko bata diya? (He said in a voice that was barely understandable by anyone... But Dr. Avinash understood it as he knew that this question was about to come)

Avinash - Haa sir... Ab they are toh fine nahi keh sakta lekin they have coped up with it... Bas ek dusre ko samjha rahe hai kyuki kudh ko nahi samjha paa rahe... But they are strong sir just as you are

Abhijeet - (saying to himself in his mind) They are strong... Very strong... Lekin sirf tab tak, jab tak unhe yeh pata nahi chal jata ki Daya par goli maine chalayi thi

Avinash - Sir appko pata hai na ki Daya sir ko goli kisne mari? App kisi tarike se usse pakadwa kyu nahi dete?

Abhijeet - Jald hi pakadwa dunga... Bas kuch waqt ki baat hai!

Avinash - Ab sir isme mai kya bol sakta hu... Waise maine appko kisi kaam se bulaya tha... If you are fine now toh mai uss bare mai baat karu?

Abhijeet - Ji boliye?

Avinash - Sir Daya sir coma mai zaroor hai lekin unki sences ab kaam kar rahi hai... Unka dimag ab bhi active hai... Agar kuch nahi chal raha, toh woh hai unki respond karne ki takat... Sir jab mai unhe operate kar raha tha tab woh behoshi mai appka naam le rahe the! Sir mujhe reason toh nahi pata lekin woh disturbed hai... Koi toh chiz unhe pareshan kar rahi hai... Unka brain stable nahi hai... There is something that is troubling him even in this condition... Shayad appki maut ki kabhar? Manta hu sir ki iss baat ko 1 mahina ho gaya, lekin unka iss halat mai appka naam lena batata hai ki app dono kitne close ho... Ho sakata hai ki yeh baat ab bhi unhe pareshan kar rahi ho... Am just guessing... Whatever may be the reason but its something related to you... Sir unki mental calmness bohat zaroori hai... Aur iska sirf ek hi tarika mujhe nazar aa raha hai aur woh hai ki app unse baat kare... Chinta mat kijiye maine yeh sab appki team ko nahi bataya... I know you are pretending dead in front of them... But sir appko Daya sir se baat karni hogi... There is no other way out... Mai appko ek andar ke raste, jaha se doctor's  jate hai waha se ICU mai, jaha woh abhi hai, waha bhijwa dunga... Appki team ko pata nahi chalega... App please unse baat karke aayiye... Baat matlab woh appko jawab toh nahi denge lekin app woh baat clear karke aayiye jo unhe pareshan kar rahi hai... Is it ok?

Abhijeet - Haa... Haa mai baat karta hu usse... (In his mind) Pata nahi daya kaise face karuga mai tumhe! Lekin mai karuga... Tujhe theek karne ke liye jo kuch bhi karna pade mai sab karuga

Avinash - (getting up from his seat) Chaliye sir... This way... Aur sir please unke samne royiga mat

Abhijeet - Hmm

*ICU (beside Daya's bed)*

(Dr. Avinash had already gone and had also taken the nurse with him... As he wanted Abhijeet to feel comfortable as he had to be if he wanted to make Daya's calm)

Abhijeet - (with a smile) Hi daya! Soch rahe ho na ki kyu aaya hu mai yaha? Chinta mat kar... Ab kuch nahi karuga tujhe (with a slight laughter... He then sat down on the stool beside him holding his hand) Dost, sorry bolne aaya tha... Janta hu jo maine kiya woh mafi ke layak nahi hai lekin sorry ke alawa kuch aur bol bhi nahi sakta mai... Dr. Avinash ne bataya, ki tu behoshi mai mera naam le raha tha... Itna pyar karta hai tu mujhse? Nahi karna chahiye tha na... Mai deserve hi nahi karta tera pyar! Ab bas hogaya jaldi se uth ja na please... Bas thode dino ki baat hai... Mai tujhe tere saare sawalo ke jawab de dunga... Tujhe jo saza deni hai na de dena mujhe, mai khushi khushi sah lunga... Lekin please uth jaa na... Mere liye na sahi toh team ke liye (but daya was least affected by the happenings... And it seemed as if daya had decided to punish abhijeet this way)... Pata hai daya tujh pe goli chalane ke baad bohat roya mai... Phir Dr. Avinash ne kaha ki tujh se milte waqt rou nahi... So i started smiling... Daya situation made me cry, Dr. Avinash made me smile but you know what Daya you made me smile with tears in my eyes... You always have this effect on me... And i don't know how... Ajj pehli baar tere samne aane se dar lag raha tha mujhe... Magar tujhe dekhte hi sara dar sari taklif sab dur hogaya... Log kehte hai pyar se khobsurat koi rishta nahi hota... Shayad unhone kabhi dosti nahi ki! Chalta hu dost apna khayal rakhna... (He went to the door but again then came back to Daya and hugged him although carefully as not to hurt his wounds) Pata hai galat waqt pe keh raha hu lekin please Daya mujhse nafrat mat karna... Tu chahe toh goli mar dena lekin please mujhse kabhi nafrat mat karna mai seh nahi pauga... Bye... Take care

(And then he came out from the room)

Avinash - Sir ho gayi baat?

Abhijeet - Haa (he said smiling)

Avinash - Kya baat hai sir, app jab andar gaye the toh forced smile ke saath gaye the... Ab jab bahar aaye hai toh real smile ke saath aaye hai? You are looking much better now! Daya ne joke sunaya kya? (He asked joking)

Abhijeet - Intezar kar raha hu uske mujhe joke sunane ka... Usse jald theek kijiye Dr. Avinash... Mujhe mera bhai jald se jald theek chahiye... Aur rahi mere smile karne ki baat toh mujhe smile karane ke liye usse joke nahi sunana padta

           After discussing a few more things with Dr. Avinash, Abhijeet left the hospital... Left the hospital feeling much more better than before... Daya's condition was also stable now... Abhijeet healed Daya's pains and Daya was Abhijeet's medicine for his wounds... The awkwardness that was bound to exist between them disappeared the moment both the friends came together... World told them that 'Relations are like a glass, beautiful yet weak and a small shock can shatter them in innumerable number of pieces'... But today it was evident that their relation was made up of hard rock which may be rough but was strong enough to withstand any calamity and even bullets couldn't break it apart.
                       *Flashback ends*

*Present (Continued from when Abhijeet kidnapped Daya from hospital)*

          Daya was lying on the floor of Abhijeet's room in the chawl... He was still unconscious and tied up... Abhijeet was standing beside the window and staring at the surroundings... He was waiting for Daya to gain back his consciousness although he had no clue about how he will face Daya this time... He was afraid of that questioning gaze and hateful eyes... For the first time he was afraid! Sr. Insp Abhijeet was afraid... And that too of none other than Daya!

To be continued...

           (Peeping into my own blog) Mai aa jau idhar? Agar app sab ka gussa shant ho gaya ho toh? I think am safe... So finally done! And am so sorry for this late update... To compensate it i have tried writing a very big chapter... With answers to some questions and still many remaining unanswered... Don't worry those will be answered too...